TheIntrover

Don't know why Instagram somehow managed to show me reels tht I really needed to see.... You know what I really cherish everymoment we spent... I wud like to believe that the last time I saw yu was in my car listening to songs and smoking. And the smile which yu gave wen yu were coming for your post op rounds and I was standing in th corner and saw yu.... I believe that was the last time we spoke and what ever yu spoke after tht day was just a bad dream and someone made yu type it.... I did go to mourya grand today with kiran and all i remembered was how beautiful yu looked on ur birthday wen yu occupied the center stage and all the gazes that I gave yu and all the eye lock we had... But it's okay... Life can't be a dream it's always reality and reality and us were never on the same track... Every time it gets soo painful oly the alcohol and th smoke comes to the rescue don't know how many years I wud love.. i still fail to believe tht the last few messages vere som...

How do I explain this. She doesn't want me to talk to her. A mere sight of her makea me wanna run to her and say how my day went in short and listen to her explain about her day very briefly and inturn reply something good to her. Tease her a little bit get beatings from her. Ask her how her duty day is going and offer her anything as sh needs to complete the busy day.  But th moment I see her I have to look the ground and passby her without making a single eye. Concact. But even then i saw a small or the smallest gesture wen sh looked at me. 

Today I've had my presentation. Somehow I made an effort despite all this heartbreak. How much ever I prepare all tht i needed was an all the best from you... I literally ignored everyone in th seminar and thought I was presenting th seminar to you like im explaining it to someone in ent who has no clue about ortho, which is why th seminar came out soo well and all the juniors said ma'am yu taught really well.. slowly putting all your love into the good things... I've decided I will learn better and show the lil part of th love I have to all the patients i come accross with better knowledge..