slow and steady

Don't know why Instagram somehow managed to show me reels tht I really needed to see.... You know what I really cherish everymoment we spent... I wud like to believe that the last time I saw yu was in my car listening to songs and smoking. And the smile which yu gave wen yu were coming for your post op rounds and I was standing in th corner and saw yu.... I believe that was the last time we spoke and what ever yu spoke after tht day was just a bad dream and someone made yu type it.... I did go to mourya grand today with kiran and all i remembered was how beautiful yu looked on ur birthday wen yu occupied the center stage and all the gazes that I gave yu and all the eye lock we had... But it's okay... Life can't be a dream it's always reality and reality and us were never on the same track... Every time it gets soo painful oly the alcohol and th smoke comes to the rescue don't know how many years I wud love.. i still fail to believe tht the last few messages vere something that yu said cuz somebody held yu at the gun point and asked yu to send those messages to me