TheIntrover

I was a person who didn't like hills or mountains, found lakes boring, sunset just a geographical event, sea just a wavepool to play. But now I see the beauty of everything for what they are and beyond. I'm able to get lost in the beauty as well and feel the same warmth which I once used to get wen I talk to you. Every hill or mountain reminds me of how tall I've kept yu in my heart, every lake reminds me of the calmness n reflection of me in your eyes, every sunset reminds me of the glow on your face, every wave reminds me of your laughter and also how dangerous you are to me.

Pratiyondu mellane baruva aleyalli ninna naguva kaanuve Pritayondu aarbhatisuva aleyalli ninna kopava kaanuve Pratiyondu nanna kaala sokisuva aleyalli ninna saniha kaanuve Pratiyondu naana kaala hattira bandu hintirugi hoguva aleyalli ninna viraha kaanuve 

Waking up with the feeling that next day is sush's birthday... Somehow I felt wishing for valentine's day wud be a bad idea and refrained frm the same.... As the day there was anxiety what if yu don't like what I have planned for ur birthday, what if yu are not ready to accept antha... My ex happened to call to enquire about manglore trip .. he sensed th tension in my voice and asked me sush what's it antha.... I told him n th oly thing he said was do what ur heart says, how sh reacts is left to her and it's not in your hands so go for it......  When he said that I got my energy back then left in my car to mysore, with th excitement that was unreal... First bought those dreamy skyshots after asking th vendor soo many questions.... Then got my gifts wrapped .... Then went in search for the flowers... Everywhere yu go it's just red roses as it's valentine's day... Searched almost half of mysore to find a place with other colors as well ... Went on and orde...

8momths ago... Wen I came out saying i have feelings for you to karthik... He said adella beda and suggested to listen to this 'let her go song'.... I used to listen and it never felt relatable.... Only now I understand what it means... I was scared that I'm gonna hate you for avoiding me and asking me to never talk .. but I realised moving on and letting you free requires more love than chasing you... I'm ready to spend that amount of love on you, one reason yu wud be better off widout me and another reason being it might hurt lesser in sometime... I'm happy that I won't hate you, cuz hating yu wud erase all the good memories we had.. I'm quite good at that but I didn't want that to happen may b that's why I kept on holding on to yu no matter if yu disrespect or show ur disinterest.... There's this line in vtv where simbu says ' anbil thodangi anbil mudikiren' meaning I'll start with love and end with love... I was scared I can't...

Today is th first day i spent widout her duty roster... All these days part of me used to live wid her.... If it's her duty henge Andre okay now sh wud hv finished OPD , now she wud hav gone to see ward patients who got admitted... Okay now sh. Wud hav come to casualty ohh wait did sh hav coffee in middle of all this... Did she hav pre op or post op as well, is her duty day busy, did sh like the dinner the aunty gave, did sh sleep in casualty or cud go to her room, did sh get enough sleep l, could sh hv breakfast the next day...... Dammmn one day widout knowing where she is that what sh must be doing 

Today I went home... Usually any tough situation in my head wud just stand still wen I look at my sister.... Why do I still feel the pain even when I look at her.. Why is it that no matter how much ever I laugh wid my family at the end of it ur memories pricks like a thorn... Everytime I eat something very tasty I enjoy the taste and then there is this fraction where it tastes all bitter thinking of the fact that I can't make yu eat them...